This Past Week

I started this new job in Berkeley, a city I love and want to live in. I just can't afford it yet. I love my job and I love the people I work with. I enjoy getting to work an hour early just so I can walk around and experience the essence of Berkeley: the people. I look at each store and person and examine them. I just wonder what can I learn. I feel everyone has a story from the bum and his dog to the executive in a rush. There's a reason these people are here in Berkeley. I feel like home when I'm there. It makes me so happy. From my very first time there until now I still get excited to be around such culture and activism.
Sometimes I wonder if I made a mistake not going to Cal. Then I remember that everything happens for a reason. There were people I was supposed to meet and I wouldn't be where I am today without those experiences. We all have things that we wish we could change, but life is uncontrollable to an extent.
Everyday is a step closer to learning who you are and where you want to go. When I was younger I wanted to be a doctor, lawyer, a coroner, an artist, a singer, a business leader , and so much more. Now I wonder sometimes what it is I want to do exactly. One thing I know for sure is that I want the freedom to call the shots. I realize now more than ever I have the power to be whatever and whoever I want to be if I just believe in myself. This is something I need to work on. It's a habit from my childhood, I was told this is who I am and I believed it. Now I know I'm more than that. It's just hard to get out of a 24 year bad habit.
Everyday is a learning experience and I love it. We all have our up and our down days, but it's what we learn from each experience that helps us. I'm happy that I am getting closer to my heart's desires. My advice to anyone else who comes by my blog is to do what you want and if you can't, do something that will get you closer to getting to do what you want. The only person that can limit you is you.
Parents do have a say in a child's life but don't let your dream go. Parents tend to put their dreams and beliefs on to their children without much thought. That carries over into adulthood. I'm proof. Everyone is strong enough to fulfill their dreams and be happy. Do what the authoritative figure in your life says, but also do what you love. There's time for both until you are strong enough to stand up for yourself.
Have a lovely day or night and I hope this random thought somehow helps you move forward with your life. It's never to late to be who you want to be. Age is just a number and life is just a phase. Live everyday like it's your last stage. You're the star of your own show.